February 25, 2012
Grace
When you feel like you are the end is when you experience Grace. I've spent the last few week seeking God, his calling, and what he is longing for. I've become beyond amazed on how far off I was. Like I could be good enough for him, like there is enough work I can do for him to love me. I am loved by a holy God because of the cross. I am not loved because of the way I live. That's freedom!
February 14, 2012
Purpose
Even then God had designs on me. Why, when I was still in my mother's womb he chose and called me out of sheer generosity! (Galatians 1:15 MSG)
When we take the time to chill out and really see that God has uniquely designed in us a purpose. Many times we try to become something that God has not called us to or giving us the abilities to do.
I see God now has created in you and I an ability to worship him in many different forms. We all have different hobbies and talents. Those hobbies and talents is simply to bring joy to life and to bring him Glory.
When we take the time to chill out and really see that God has uniquely designed in us a purpose. Many times we try to become something that God has not called us to or giving us the abilities to do.
I see God now has created in you and I an ability to worship him in many different forms. We all have different hobbies and talents. Those hobbies and talents is simply to bring joy to life and to bring him Glory.
Purpose
Even then God had designs on me. Why, when I was still in my mother's womb he chose and called me out of sheer generosity! (Galatians 1:15 MSG)
When we take the time to chill out and really see that God has uniquely designed in us a purpose. Many times we try to become something that God has not called us to or giving us the abilities to do.
I see God now has created in you and I an ability to worship him in many different forms. We all have different hobbies and talents. Those hobbies and talents is simply to bring joy to life and to bring him Glory.
When we take the time to chill out and really see that God has uniquely designed in us a purpose. Many times we try to become something that God has not called us to or giving us the abilities to do.
I see God now has created in you and I an ability to worship him in many different forms. We all have different hobbies and talents. Those hobbies and talents is simply to bring joy to life and to bring him Glory.
February 11, 2012
I first want to start with simply thanking you for your compassion, prayers, and love. God has shown me so much the last couple of weeks. I have so much to say but holding a lot of it in for the right time. But here are a few things God is doing.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. (John 10:10 NIV)
Through this journey that scripture has become a reality to me. That Satan's design is to come in and take my heart and mind and make it into something that it simply wasn't designed to be like. I allowed that to happen to many times. I have failed, I have stumbled, and I allowed Satan to take my mind and heart and do something with it that was meant for God.
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:31-39 NIV)
Now with some time, counseling, accountability,and even seeking some medical attention my mind set has changed. I've become amazed that what I view has a problem God delights in. My counselor has really helped me make sense of my thoughts. Jeff has met up with me every week at chillis. I've simply wanted to go there because the first young man I had the chance to make an impact on is a waiter there. I've had the opportunity to have dinner with him. He has been able to take me back to that time, when it was simply because I loved God. I saw this young man and saw God in him.
All that is great, but I've also been learning the value of simply having fun in life. I've learned that God has wired me a certain way and that is to bring him Glory. Through laughter, tears, and the words I speak. I am naturally an easy going guy. I've allowed other peoples expectations to change that. I've spent the last several years trying to always become better and not just living and allowing Christ to make me a better person.
I am personally going through the book of Galatians and this verse stuck out.... If I was "trying to be good," I would be rebuilding the same old barn that I tore down. I would be acting as a charlatan. (Galatians 2:18 MSG)
A few weeks ago my heart was in a million pieces. I've simply been allowing God to put those pieces together. I must be honest with you, a few weeks ago I thought I was at the end. But now I am swing that this is just the beginning.
With that being said the greatest thing I have learned is this..,.compassion for one another and the compassion from Jesus Christ is and should be the main focus for my life. At this moment that is something I'm allowing God to build in my life.
Thank you for your prayers and love.
Nick
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. (John 10:10 NIV)
Through this journey that scripture has become a reality to me. That Satan's design is to come in and take my heart and mind and make it into something that it simply wasn't designed to be like. I allowed that to happen to many times. I have failed, I have stumbled, and I allowed Satan to take my mind and heart and do something with it that was meant for God.
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:31-39 NIV)
Now with some time, counseling, accountability,and even seeking some medical attention my mind set has changed. I've become amazed that what I view has a problem God delights in. My counselor has really helped me make sense of my thoughts. Jeff has met up with me every week at chillis. I've simply wanted to go there because the first young man I had the chance to make an impact on is a waiter there. I've had the opportunity to have dinner with him. He has been able to take me back to that time, when it was simply because I loved God. I saw this young man and saw God in him.
All that is great, but I've also been learning the value of simply having fun in life. I've learned that God has wired me a certain way and that is to bring him Glory. Through laughter, tears, and the words I speak. I am naturally an easy going guy. I've allowed other peoples expectations to change that. I've spent the last several years trying to always become better and not just living and allowing Christ to make me a better person.
I am personally going through the book of Galatians and this verse stuck out.... If I was "trying to be good," I would be rebuilding the same old barn that I tore down. I would be acting as a charlatan. (Galatians 2:18 MSG)
A few weeks ago my heart was in a million pieces. I've simply been allowing God to put those pieces together. I must be honest with you, a few weeks ago I thought I was at the end. But now I am swing that this is just the beginning.
With that being said the greatest thing I have learned is this..,.compassion for one another and the compassion from Jesus Christ is and should be the main focus for my life. At this moment that is something I'm allowing God to build in my life.
Thank you for your prayers and love.
Nick
February 9, 2012
Matthew 11
"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me-watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." (Matthew 11:28-30 MSG)
Awesome stuff. Found a lot of hope in this today!
Awesome stuff. Found a lot of hope in this today!
February 5, 2012
The last two weeks
high or low, thinkable or unthinkable-absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. (Romans 8:39 MSG)
I haven't had words in awhile to write. I just did this blog thing cause I had to. But God today spoke to me today in away I haven't heard in a while. I understand something I have known for a while. God is for me, not against me. I know that, but today I understand a little more.
The two natural things for me is to give and to help. I must be honest the first week of taking a step back and looking into my heart was painful. On the outside I look like I have it all together, on the inside I was finished. I could no longer hold myself together.
This week I've been able to sit across people and just spill my guts and not feel bad for it. I've been able to understand I am not the only one. As I go through this, my heart breaks because I feel like many times we try to impress God with out abilities and charm. In all reality that is by far the most exhausting thing a person can do. I know because that has been me.
So as I write this I am laughing and enjoying life a little more. I am not healed, but I am allowing God to do the work in me.
Today I had a late lunch with David. We both were making jokes. To think just a few months ago he almost died twice. As a youth pastor I didn't know what to do. I've never been through that. Today I was just amazed that I was looking at a miracle. I started thinking to myself....Gods plan doesn't always make sense, but I must trust.
I am doing ok. I am learning to live for the moment.
I haven't had words in awhile to write. I just did this blog thing cause I had to. But God today spoke to me today in away I haven't heard in a while. I understand something I have known for a while. God is for me, not against me. I know that, but today I understand a little more.
The two natural things for me is to give and to help. I must be honest the first week of taking a step back and looking into my heart was painful. On the outside I look like I have it all together, on the inside I was finished. I could no longer hold myself together.
This week I've been able to sit across people and just spill my guts and not feel bad for it. I've been able to understand I am not the only one. As I go through this, my heart breaks because I feel like many times we try to impress God with out abilities and charm. In all reality that is by far the most exhausting thing a person can do. I know because that has been me.
So as I write this I am laughing and enjoying life a little more. I am not healed, but I am allowing God to do the work in me.
Today I had a late lunch with David. We both were making jokes. To think just a few months ago he almost died twice. As a youth pastor I didn't know what to do. I've never been through that. Today I was just amazed that I was looking at a miracle. I started thinking to myself....Gods plan doesn't always make sense, but I must trust.
I am doing ok. I am learning to live for the moment.
January 29, 2012
Song that means allot
I can only imagine is the song tat to this day that means allot to me. Mainly because many times in life we try to imagine what God is going to be like, or what heaven is going to look at. In all reality are we really going to care?
At the same time the song brings back memories to the time I gave my heart to Christ, several years ago. When I heard the song it started to make me think where my life was an where it was going. I remember becoming overwhelmed with the presents of God.
As I imagine heaven I see...well, I am not sure an I think it's meant to be that way. I can guess, but in all reality I simply don't know. Not knowing is not always a bad thing. But I pray that God would continue help me press forward.
At the same time the song brings back memories to the time I gave my heart to Christ, several years ago. When I heard the song it started to make me think where my life was an where it was going. I remember becoming overwhelmed with the presents of God.
As I imagine heaven I see...well, I am not sure an I think it's meant to be that way. I can guess, but in all reality I simply don't know. Not knowing is not always a bad thing. But I pray that God would continue help me press forward.
November 21, 2011
God is good
If I were to be honest the last year of my life has been bittersweet. The biggest struggle has been who I am in Christ. I've struggle with that for years. Today I was talking with a good friend and she said this:
"Just remember that God is never mad or disappointed with you; He's just longing for you to be closer to Him every day."
My struggle has been just that, feeling like I am letting people down and that I disappoint them. When I can't do something for someone I become frustrated.i need to stop that and simply enjoy him. I struggle knowing how to do that. Good to hear.
"Just remember that God is never mad or disappointed with you; He's just longing for you to be closer to Him every day."
My struggle has been just that, feeling like I am letting people down and that I disappoint them. When I can't do something for someone I become frustrated.i need to stop that and simply enjoy him. I struggle knowing how to do that. Good to hear.
November 19, 2011
Frankie
The other day I logged on to Facebook and saw a post from a friend saying her and her husband took in a foster kid for the first time and they had nothing. I felt in my heart to to give to them. Now in these times I always take a student with me. I want them to see I don't jUst preach it, I want to live it. We went to Walmart and bought a bunch of stuff. My student bought this little seven year old a cartoon DVD.
As we gave the stuff to little Frankie, God really hit me with something. It was when we take care of orphans, the blessing is huge in our own lives. Then I started thinking about how we give. We give from the bottom of our hearts. Next Wednesday the student of mine and myself will meet up with little frankie to take him shopping. The real reason we are going is to simply build a relationship with Frankie and support a friend who is willing to take in a stranger and love them like jesus.
let's just go ahead and be what we were made to be, without enviously or pridefully comparing ourselves with each other, or trying to be something we aren't. If you preach, just preach God's Message, nothing else; if you help, just help, don't take over; if you teach, stick to your teaching; if you give encouraging guidance, be careful that you don't get bossy; if you're put in charge, don't manipulate; if you're called to give aid to people in distress, keep your eyes open and be quick to respond; if you work with the disadvantaged, don't let yourself get irritated with them or depressed by them. Keep a smile on your face. Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle. Don't burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality. (Romans 12:6-13 MSG)
As we gave the stuff to little Frankie, God really hit me with something. It was when we take care of orphans, the blessing is huge in our own lives. Then I started thinking about how we give. We give from the bottom of our hearts. Next Wednesday the student of mine and myself will meet up with little frankie to take him shopping. The real reason we are going is to simply build a relationship with Frankie and support a friend who is willing to take in a stranger and love them like jesus.
let's just go ahead and be what we were made to be, without enviously or pridefully comparing ourselves with each other, or trying to be something we aren't. If you preach, just preach God's Message, nothing else; if you help, just help, don't take over; if you teach, stick to your teaching; if you give encouraging guidance, be careful that you don't get bossy; if you're put in charge, don't manipulate; if you're called to give aid to people in distress, keep your eyes open and be quick to respond; if you work with the disadvantaged, don't let yourself get irritated with them or depressed by them. Keep a smile on your face. Love from the center of who you are; don't fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle. Don't burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality. (Romans 12:6-13 MSG)
November 5, 2011
Fear
Many times of my Life I've allowed fear to take over. Fear has always been my big downfall in life. The beautiful part Of fear is that you see the need for God: many times fear is wrapped up in in evil. But when it comes to fear we can see God is on our side. So the Goal is to see God in all situations.
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