Time

Time is such a tough Subject. You hear people talk about it and you can almost hear people saying the samething. The way I see it now is that this is not my time, and God gave it to me for his purpose. Could it be that we make tougher than it really is?? I think back to the days leaving church on a Wednesday frustrated. It was amazing how people always had an opinion for how something should have been done differently. I spent two years trying to get people to understand that I was different from the youth pastor before. Brian is still at the church and we are good friends but we were different.

I spent my time maintaining something that was not mine or what God called me to. You see mentoring was sways the answer to me. Spending time with a person and helping them see Gods grace. Some how I managed to screw that up to. I was so worried about me looking good, and not there spiritual needs.

So what does this have to do with time??? Everything! In October u went on a walk to emmaus. It took several years because I was a control freak. I rarely do things like that with out details. I went and when I came back thing started falling apart and it was time for God to control my time.

Now my time is not spent proving myself to people. I enjoy spending my time outside of church helping those in need. I don't want a stage or a huge audience, I simply want one person. At this point God has giving me two young people to invest hours of my time into. Both are in two spots. One has a mother who loves him dearly and the other was abandoned at the age of 13. Both have different needs but require the same medication, "quality time."

Quality time means this me simply being fully there. This is with my reationship with God and people. I spend less time in line and more time talking with people. More than anything else I am being blessed. Not because I am doing a good thing, but because I am seeing things for what they are.

Anyone who knows me knows that I love your time and words. I love to hear "good job" or a simple dinner. Gifts are ok, but I want time. It is important that I understand that God and others want the same from me.