What I want to be remembered as

If I could be remembered for anything, it would be the doing the small things to makes someone's life a little easier. I believe so many times in life we overlook the small and forget that those things are important. I also want to be remembered as a person who loves when it's not easy to love. So many times we will write people off because of attitude, we forget we were once in the same boat.

Last but not least, I want to be remembered as a person who simply did all he could do to the best of his ability. So much of my life was robbed by trying to prove myself. Now it's simply doing my best with what I have.

So if I was to go that is what I would want to be rememberd as.

To be honest

If I were to be honest with you, I have been at a turning point in my life for the last 8 months. I've only told one person this, but felt like making it public. God started prompting me to pray for my future family. My future wife and kids. People who know me know that is a huge step. I've always been afraid of relationships. My biggest fear was screwing it up, repeating family history, not being able to be the man God wanted me to me.

This fear did more than just cripple me, it stopped me from Doing Gods will. But God in his all knowing, had a plan for me. You see a young man walked into our youth group. I remember the day very well. That moment I knew there was something about him. I met his mother that night. Because of some past mistakes she was a little afraid to let her son go anywhere. But I talked her into letting him go with the youth group to Rosas.

He has never missed a Sunday. His parents and grandma started coming to church. Him and I built a strong bond. We eat together once a week. Out of nowhere I was asked to be his God father. His mom said there was a night and day difference in him.

But here is beauty, God used him to change me. Being in a partnership with him and his family has taught me I am going to screw it up, I am going to get things wrong. But what matters is that we do this life together. He's a young man who almost got into a gang, God through his grace and mercy allowed the two of us to impact each other. I have tears even writing this. This week Aline I have been so proud of him. AB honorrole, his mother has enough trust in him to extend his curfew. I can't tell you how many homeless people he has helped. how many lunches he has bought someone at school with the money he earns. Even his mother has said she has learned so much for him.

Together does work, he is not just a youth kid...he is family.

Random place to blog

I am sitting in kids village blogging. We are shooting a story a story on cribs. Well I know I haven't done anything the last couple of months. The last few weeks have been full of trials on many different levels. There have been alot of personal issues and family problems. bit I have to admit it had been nice to see people come together. For along time it was easy for me to share things with anyone. But lately I have three or four people I trust with my stuff. Those three or four people have become the best of friends.

So when we talk about doing things together I think we need to look around at who we have with us. I understand now that we can find anyone who agrees with us, but we need that person who will look us in the eyes and tell us straight up.

A few weeks ago I was stressing over small things. I had a 17 year old look at me and ask the tough question. "nick how long are you going to live this way." WOW! That hurt but it was good. He knew nothing other than the fact I was stress. That weekend I had a friend call me out saying enjoy life and the time you have.

I needed that. I needed someone to be honest with me. So with that being said...chill out and enjoy the time you have. Get away, do something you enjoy. God has giving us limited time we need to cherish the time we have.